Last Night's Visit

Obviously this is a completely new experience for Alex and I. We have only a vague idea of what to expect when this baby starts making her way into the world. The vast amounts of advice and "let me tell you exactly how this will be" scenarios from those around us, while helpful, only offer us what someone else has experienced. And every story is different, so we really just have to wait and see what our experience will be. Which brings me to yesterday afternoon....
I have never felt the sensation of my water break before, but Tuesday night some strange things started occurring. So yesterday, I finally thought that I should call just to make sure I wasn't being neglectful (it had almost been 24 hours & my midwife has said numerous times the first 24 hours after your water breaks you need to come in). I called, explained the situation to the nurse and she told me to come in. I called Alex, who was glad I was finally listening to him since he told me to call the night before, and headed to the hospital. For three hours they had me hooked up to monitors. My contractions were 6-8 minutes apart, and I was dilated to 3 cm. But when they checked my water, it was unfortunately still intact. So I was sent home. Although we were slightly disappointed, Alex & I were also glad that everything was still okay with Addison and progressing.
There have been few other times in my life where I have really felt as if my patience was being tested. It is hard, especially in today's society, to just take a step back and let a situation work itself out rather than try and push things in the direction you want them to go. I have had to resign myself to the fact that no matter how many times I run up and down the stairs trying to get my water to break, or how often I eat spicy foods, this little girl will be ready when she's ready. After a lot of praying and inner reflection I am willing to "let go and let God". He knows what He's doing and I just need to sit back and be thankful.