Saturday, May 1, 2010

New Playground Enthusiast


As I am looking out of my window on this wet and soggy day, I am glad we played outside so much yesterday! Friday was our first big playground experience. Now that Addie is much more steady on her feet, I thought she would enjoy watching the older kids run around and maybe go down the slide once or twice.

We chose a great playground downtown by the riverfront that has a bunch of slides, things to climb on and a walking trail along the river. At first she did not know what to do with herself. There were only two older children there, maybe 4 and 7-years-old. She studied their movements, perplexed why they kept choosing to jump from the top of the jungle gym, then climb right back up and do it again. When the other children saw us, they ran over asking a million questions: 'Who is this baby?' 'How old is she?' 'Can she dress herself?' and my personal favorite, 'Can she come home with me?'. Ahh, I am so looking forward to the "20 questions" years that are right around the corner.

We managed to dodge the children a little while later. I got the little boy to go throw wood chips on the other side of the playground... he didn't need much convincing. The little girl was a bit harder to shake. She did not want me holding Addie's hand, she wanted me to hold her hand. Then she wanted me to carry her. I did not do either, all I needed was for her mother to reappear and see me carrying her daughter around. So I told her to go down by the river and see if she saw any ducks. Yep. Even as I type this I realize how terrible that sounds. Well her absentee mother should have been paying more attention to her... she was by the way jogging along the RiverWalk so easily half a mile away. Nice. I can't believe ya'll think I'm the bad one.

For awhile our entire playground experience was me following AG around the equipment, inspecting staircases, knocking on the giant pieces of plexiglass they use to keep kids from plummeting off the sides, picking up the occasional wood chip. She just wanted to walk around the jungle gym and view the world from different angles.

That's when she saw the slide. A towering green swirl of delight. I asked if she wanted to go down and her neck almost snapped she was nodding so emphatically. Then she just started walking towards the opening! I caught her right before she was about to step off the deep end. We sat down together and I muttered a quick prayer hoping I wouldn't look like the idiot mother whose butt got stuck on the children's slide.

326 times down the slide later I was looking for a new piece of playground equipment that might spark interest. We sat for awhile on one of the swinging park benches, then walked along the river and stopped to pet every single dog we saw. It was impossible not to, when they walked past she began screaming and pointing, "Dog - dog - dog!" All of the owners were obviously used to it and she met everyone from a giant Bull Mastif named Daisy, to a little 4-month-old Jack Russel, Max. By the time I had a chance to look at the clock two hours had already flown by.

The park has now been added to our growing list of "let's do this again". There were so many invaluable learning opportunities as well - colors, movement, shapes and sounds. I don't know why people buy all of those insanely expensive computerized toys just to explain what a red circle is. Take the kid outside and they'll learn about the circle and a whole slew of other useful kid knowledge. Like what a leaf tastes like.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

A Struggle for Independence

A new phase of life has begun in our house.

Independence.

I have been preparing myself. I read the parenting websites, I have spoken to seasoned veterans. All of my sources have warned of this impending life experience. But who is ever prepared? How can you really be ready for your child to tell you "No Mom, I don't need you. I've got this"?

Yes, she is only 15-months-old. I do realize she does still need me (for nothing else at least as a chauffeur to the mall). But it was just one month ago that she had the courage to get up and take her first steps. She clung to my hand, timidly taking a few steps before clutching my leg for support. Now she will only take my hand if I beg and is tired of walking. She wants to run.

This morning as I dropped her off at daycare she gave me a hug and toddled away. Something I am always grateful for, because I would hate if she had trouble letting go. It is funny that now I am the one having trouble.

I try to find comfort in knowing other working mothers are going through the same struggles. There is support out there, in the forms of online discussions, meeting groups or websites. I am not alone. But if we're just being honest, it's really not reassuring that another mother struggles too, it just makes it suck twice as much.

What I do find comfort in is the belief that everything happens for a reason. I trust that God has a plan for our family. That plan may not always move in the direction we want it to, but I have faith that the outcome will be one that is right for us.

As for my little baby, I mean toddler, she is loving the world around her these days. Everything is new and wonderful. Each new event becomes an adventure in discovery. Even daily routines are another chance to practice developing skills. Her independence is giving her a confidence that could only come from, well, being independent. I guess maybe I am learning new things about myself as well; things only she could teach me.